Misconceptions and an Emo Side Unraveled.

This week is now dubbed emo-week/pre-GOHP week. It seems to me that picking on Judy is the new theme. In order to do that, you have to pinpoint my many flaws and exaggerate them so that you become victimized. In turn, i look like a complete ignorant moron. What's happening? I don't know, but i know that i'm upset. This has been on my chest for awhile and i haven't been able to write about it until now. First thing, i want to clarify to everyone that knows me/doesn't know me. I am respectful, especially to elders. You think i'm a moronic, selfish, loser but i'm not. Surprise surprise. I know how to think. What i hate the most about people is that they form misconceptions. I know that, if my life depended on it, i can easily charm the pants off of old people. So if i'm so sure, does that make me ignorant or truthful? or maybe even conceited? Secondly, i hate how people pick on a certain vice and decide to exaggerate it to the extent that you milk the precious reassurance of people around you. "Don't hurt me." That would imply that i'm mean. And am i mean to you little sister? I just don't see it. Why kick me when i'm already ten feet down. That's a petty joke that i don't understand. I've seen you at your ugliest and meanest. You are not a weakling as your persona entails. You are capable of defending for yourself, so why enlist biased defenders. Why do i take these stupid joke to heart? Because i've done everything i can to be a good big sister. You ask for something, i try to get it done. I never leave you or anyone behind. So when you blatantly portray otherwise, it hurts.

I hate complaining about life. Before this week is over, i have to get crackin. I have to write a cover letter and send it into two other news stations. I hope i'm not too late. I don't know what to do if i don't get the KXAN internship. In the meantime, i 've learned how to french braid the front of my hair, following my hairline. It's really neat. I tried to keep it in, but i was low on bobby pins. If i perfect the look, i'll make sure to document. I hate doing hair stuff because it usually takes me forever to do. When i was little, i used to do this milkmaid look. It was really cute. Since i have mineral eyeshadow, i've been playing with a lot of makeup. It's really fast and easy to do after you get used to the consistency. Today i wore a soft smoky purple look. It was really pretty. I was quite amazed. I feel like an artist! The one thing i hate about eye-wear is that when you wash it off, you kind of stretch your eye skin. That means making a lot more wrinkles. I already have tons of blemishes, i don't want to have to worry about wrinkles! I showed my mom my blemishes and she says, "you're like me, you have freckles." Golly. They aren't freckles. She asks if i'm sure. I'm positive.