Means of Success.

Is success a state of mind? If I believe in something, I put my heart and soul into it. The outcome is generally positive. A part of succeeding is knowing your limitations. But with that acknowledgment, do you unconsciously limit yourself to your full potential?

In regards to relationships, I admit, I don't know a lot. What I do know is self-preservation. If and when (I sense) things go awry, I bail. Similar to the good procrastination offers your brain, going cold-turkey is the way I protect my heart. I'm not proud of this, but it's (fairly) easy for me to cut people out of my life and become detached.

Awhile back, a boy pursued me during, what I call, a transitional period. This phase is still going on and I really hate it (totally besides the point). I had the choice to nurture the budding romance or focus on my career. I chose the latter. As mentioned previous, I made my decisions based on my limitations and the givens. I'm a horrible multitask-er, so I weighed what was more important to me at the time and went from there.

I explained this to him and he said that if I just tried harder, I would've been able to make it work. I don't want to just "make things work." I want to excel, not settle. Not too long ago, I recall myself consoling a friend with some sound advice: "If you care enough, you will find the time."

Did I not care enough or did my limitations for success get in the way? If I adopted his mantra - "put your mind to it and you will succeed" - will I have succeeded? But that means going against everything I know about myself. Scary thought.