Expectations gone.

Why do people disappoint me. No, not just people, but family. Growing up, they always seem infallible. Maybe it was because I was young and ignorant. I kind of wish I was like that now. First it was my older sister. I really thought she could do no wrong. But the more I came to know her as a friend and overall person, the more I came detest her. Because she is my sister, I can look past her mistakes. But the fall from immaculate was crushing for me. I worked my entire life to either equal or better her. Now, I realized I was always "better" than her in certain areas. We all grow up, people change. As long as they are always there for us...that's all that matters, right? Family.

Then why is my mother doing this. First it's A T&T...now it's TXU electric co. Am I that stupid for her to think she can do anything she wants? How dare she talk to me about matters of love and monogamous marital affairs. Is that how you find happiness?

I worked my entire life to make them proud. To earn their approval....all for what? A parent that I no longer trust or respect? I just don't know what to do anymore. I guess I've always had an inkling. I'm doing this for my father. I'm doing this for a man that loves his family, his children.