Confused About My NY Heart
When there are empty spaces, it's usually because i'm too happy or content about life to blog. Now when there are empty spaces, it's because i don't have anything to blog about. Free time is a good and bad thing. It allows me to marinate and reflect about past, present, and future.
...Which causes me to become a huge sob fest. Sometimes i wish i never meant certain people in my life. That way i wouldn't have to miss them so much and endlessly wonder why i am here and they are there or wonder if they are thinking of me as much as i am thinking of them or countless other if's and wonders. But without meeting that person, i might have not been introduced to a very good time in my life. It was just so bittersweet and open-ended.
It would be healthier to stop it all.
I would be healthier to let it go.
Blarg. I am too young.
Blarg. I feel old.
Free time kills me.
Nonetheless, this is an interesting summer. It's almost been a year since my break up. Despite my complicated family and personal life, I am happy!
Gosh, growing up is so hard.
...Which causes me to become a huge sob fest. Sometimes i wish i never meant certain people in my life. That way i wouldn't have to miss them so much and endlessly wonder why i am here and they are there or wonder if they are thinking of me as much as i am thinking of them or countless other if's and wonders. But without meeting that person, i might have not been introduced to a very good time in my life. It was just so bittersweet and open-ended.
It would be healthier to stop it all.
I would be healthier to let it go.
Blarg. I am too young.
Blarg. I feel old.
Free time kills me.
Nonetheless, this is an interesting summer. It's almost been a year since my break up. Despite my complicated family and personal life, I am happy!
Gosh, growing up is so hard.
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